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Kathmandu, Nepal
At 24, she claims herself to be just an ordinary someone who is trying to find her place in this world, in search for her true calling. And along the way, as her life happens with people and situations coming and leaving, she pens down some of her thoughts & emotions here...

Friday, June 14, 2013

Why i chose to say goodbye ...

Leaving is never easy. Whether it's moving away from home, from a relationship or from a job, there are feelings and memories involved. And where such happens, it is always difficult for the human soul. Emotions filled me as i told my listeners a couple of hours ago that it was the last episode of my show, Stupid Cupid. 

It's been exactly a year now since i started this love show on Radio Kantipur. Never had i the slightest thought that it would come this far, and this good too. People loved my show! I had fans writing in to me every now and then about how much they enjoy listening to my voice, my style of presenting, my chosen topics, the songs i played and the show as a whole. I was fairly recognized despite doing only one show. Not trying to be boastful here, but who doesn't love getting all that attention? Especially from people I didn't even knew existed! ;)


But as they say that all good things must come to an end, my journey with Radio Kantipur ends here for real. And this time around, it was my own decision, not theirs.The only reason why i returned back the second time was my unquenched thirst for radio. I still wanted to do more. I was still driven by the amazing fact that i could enter the studio, put on the headphones, talk in front of the microphone and get connected with thousands of lives at once. I had dreams of going a long way and making it big in this self-chosen career.


Turns out, life doesn't always go the way we plan it to. I don't know what went wrong but I wasn't happy there. My interest and continuous requests to do a couple more shows went ignored all the time. I constantly felt left out from situations big and small. All these things mentioned (and unmentioned) slowly piled up and started demoralizing me more by the passing day. And i could never seem to find a reason behind all that injustice as i know that i am a good radio presenter. The only time i found myself happy was during that one hour on air while hosting my show. Off air, i badly wanted to get out of there.

An optimist, I gave it time and kept convincing myself that things will eventually get better soon. But nothing changed. And after months and months of battling it out between my heart and mind, i finally decided to get out and move on. I HAD to do it, although it was very tough to come to this unwanted conclusion as i loved my work as a presenter. I certainly had not foreseen this day. 

But the most difficult and heartbreaking part between all this decision-making phase was to not get the support of even a single person. Trust me, not even a single loved one with whom i had shared my affliction with, stood by me in this decision. My family, my close friends, my contemporaries, even my best friend and my boyfriend! Everyone had that same excuse, "But it's Radio Kantipur, one of the biggest media house. You should just cope with it and stay put."

Is a big name really everything? Is it that important to continue working in a place where you don't want to, just because it's a big organization? These questions screamed inside me. But I don't blame any one of them as i do understand they are saying that just for the betterment of my future career. But then, i also cannot deny the fact that i really was badly hurt. No one understood what i was going through, how this was easily affecting my mood almost everyday. No one saw how much guts it took to take this big step, without a single support. 


Lesson Learnt !

I have no idea if what i did was right or wrong, but one thing's for sure is that i won't ever regret this decision later in life. Cause only i know how i felt then and how true it was. All i did was trust my feelings and my instinct, which i don't think is a wrong thing to do.

As a budding teenager, i had dreamt of being a RJ, and i did it! I can proudly say that i lived one of my many dreams. And maybe this is God's way of telling me that it's now time i reach my hands out for the other things i have always wanted to try. As i finish this certain chapter of my storybook, i feel a rush of excitement to see what the next chapter has in store for me. I stand more stronger than ever, ready to spread my wings out for new things in life. :) 

To the entire team of Radio Kantipur, i apologize if i have unknowingly offended you in any way with my statements above. Please know it is clearly unintentional. Thank you so much for everything. For the recognition, skills, knowledge, oppurtunities, new bonds, fun times, life-long memories and what not!    I will forever be grateful for it all. :)

Waiting for my new Hello :)

Monday, June 3, 2013

Blessed to be Loved :')

To being constantly betrayed over and over again, to feeling that fear of falling in love again, to taking that risk of giving away the heart once again, to slowly learning to trust someone again, and to finally waking up one morning and realizing how being truly loved, respected, and cared for actually feels like... 

I love you with all my heart and soul, baby. To find you right by my side every single day, through all my thick and thin, I feel genuinely blessed.
 I don't know what tomorrow might bring, but what I do know today is that I am happy and you are the sole reason behind it. :')

And what I also do know for sure is, you were clearly worth the risk. ;)

Beyond happy :)


Friday, March 8, 2013

Let there be justice first...


Let there be justice for all those women who were trafficked, for all those women who were sexually abused, for all those women who suffered domestic violence, and for all those women whose lives were taken due to such. And then only, let there be a celebration for Women on International Women's Day. 

Dear Men, if you really cannot respect Women, then at least please don't disrespect them too!

Friday, February 15, 2013

Another day of love :)

And even after more than twenty four hours later, here i am, still thinking about yesterday. The sound of their giggles and the smiles on their faces, still as fresh as ever! Yesterday has without a doubt been printed as one of the most memorable pages in my book. A day i know i'll cherish forever. A day i know will be hard for me to forget. Well also because the date is easy to remember - 14th February! Haha! :P

Valentine's day for me had always been just another ordinary day, every year. The only memories i had of this particular annual event was watching my sisters wrap romantic gifts for their guys before 'the' day, the pretty girls in school/college receiving all the red-roses-attention and also, listening to the 'awww' post-valentine stories of my girlfriends. Not sure if you would believe me but i seriously had never celebrated a single 14th Feb ever in my life. Well, that was until last year when a sudden idea of celebrating love with the un-loved on the day of love popped into my mind. And i did it! If you scroll way down or maybe a few pages back, you can see how i spent 14th Feb 2012 at Aishwarya Children Home, Baluwatar with beautiful children and a few friends. I was so glad at the end of the day that i knew this was something i would love to do on every 14th Feb from then onwards. :)

And so exactly after a year, with bags and boxes full of yummy treats, we went to FreshNepal Orphanage, run by Mr. Dev Ram Tamata and his wife Mrs. Dhana Tamata at Gwarko, Kathmandu. But it wasn't my first visit to FreshNepal yesterday. I'd been there twice before with my mum, once on an ordinary day and the second time on my 21st birthday. In fact, this was the first ever orphanage i'd been to in my life. And i guess that was why i felt like going there again. A friend had suggested me to try out a different orphanage but something just pulled me there. And as i laid in my bed at night, thinking about the beautiful moments spent there, i found my answer.

We arrived there at 4:30pm, which was the perfect time cause the kids had just returned from school, all famished. So we quickly served them the chicken burgers we'd got from Makoos Bakery at Jawalakhel, home made french fries and prawn crackers. With dips of tomato ketchup and sips of Coca Cola! :) Seeing them gobble it all up in no time, we were sure and satisfied that they had enjoyed each bite.

After that, it was Dancing time! From Bollywood item numbers to traditional Kollywood songs, those kids could shake their hips and legs to any kind of music. Damn, you should have seen their wowing moves! ;) Plus they were not willing to stop dancing even after almost an hour, so you can pretty much imagine how much they dig dancing. Haha! What more, some of them even offered to come up and give solo vocal performances themselves. Such a bunch of talent! It was only when the lights went off at 6pm that they stopped dancing, just because they HAD to, cause there was no music. Haha! We then announced the 'best dancers' winners from both the girls and boys category each.

Following the prize distribution, it was then time for the second yummy treat of the day - Cupcakes! We got them from Cafe Hessed, also at Jawalakhel. Chocolate flavor for the boys and strawberry flavored ones for the girls. Twenty three cupcakes for the 19 children, for Mr. and Mrs. Tamata and also for the 2 volunteers residing there - Greg from England and Maria from Portugal! It was lovely meeting them too. :)

As i sat there chit-chatting with the kids circling all around me; some playing with my hair, some analyzing the rings on my fingers, i realized, all these children want is to be loved. How happily they loved us right back when we gave them love! And i thought about how unfair it was for them to be in an orphanage when they deserved to be at home with their family, showered with love and care. :(

Hearing her, a little one say, "Didi najanu na, aja tapai etai basnu na," as she held my hand, it was really difficult for me to leave. When i replied i'll be back another day, she quickly added, "Bholi hamro bida cha, bholi aaunu na hai." And i know that these words are the very reasons that i will go visit them again, sooner or later. :')

Relieved, satisfied, proud and happy were the emotions we were left feeling with as we made our way out. The day turned out even more finer than we had expected. Although this was planned nearly a month ago, everything had seemed to slowly fall out of place as the day neared, with some backing out at the last moment, plus with me being super busy at work regarding the deadlines. But he made it possible! :) When i thought of dropping it all off, he said, "Even if no one else joins hands, we'll do this. You and Me! We will make this happen." :')

My Valentine's day this year seemed like the entire package of the previous valentines' i had never celebrated before.  From getting beautiful red roses and a card with meaningful words that melted my heart, to sharing love and laughters with the children, to finally spending some time alone with him at dinner... i couldn't have felt more loved! :)

P.S. - Thank you Sumit dae and Bhupesh dae, for being a part of this. :)

Here are the pictures! Enjoy :D


striking a pose while cooking :P

french fries !

busy serving ...

smile :D

enjoying the food ...

girls doing the 'munni badnam' step

dancing heroes !

the best dancer winners :)

dancing along with the kids :)

excited and happy :D

cupcake is the best !
the kids with Greg and Maria

big hug :)

group pic 1


group pic 2

dinner :)

<3






Sunday, January 20, 2013

I am in Love :))


I once told someone that when i fall in love, i will happily shout out to the whole world. So today, here i am beaming as i write in big bold letters,
I AM IN LOVE :)



Cheers to being in this beautiful thing called Love !!!