Shall I dare to dream, for real ??

OK, the whole nation is talking about only one thing right now. Miss Nepal 2012. We just got ourselves a new Miss Nepal tonight. And even though i am a bit disappointed as the only contestant i had supported did not win the main title, the thing that is bothering me more is the fact that i didn't even try. :/

It happens every year. I mean, after a new lady gets crowned, i get the same feeling i am feeling right this moment. Angry and Sad. Because like every other young girl, i have also dreamt of being a Miss Nepal one day. But never have i ever taken this passion seriously. As clear as i remember, ever since i was 18, i have been going around telling people that i will lose weight one day and participate in that certain pageant. But serves me right for not trying. It is no one's but my own fault that i am here typing down my thoughts in my room when i 'could' have been on that stage tonight with a sparkling crown on my head.

And so arises the same issue yet again. The weight issue. The 'fat' factor. Always gets in the way. Damn! Why is being 'slim' such an important aspect when it comes to Beauty? Is 'big' never supposed to look beautiful? But let me not go any further there as i know it's a useless debate. So the main thing is, if i really drop sizes, do i try for it? Shall i dare to dream, for real ??

But we all know it that it does not only take beauty to win. For brains stands equally important. After all they say that a pageant winner is that 'beauty with a brain'. Well i am not exactly sure of how 'brainy' i am. But yeah, i do know that i am not brainless. Haha. I believe i do have that something in me, which is why i even dared to knit this dream in the first place itself. And then, there are also some nice people who've supported me by saying that i have what it takes and that i should give it a shot. :)

So now, it is all in my hands. Well sure it always has been, but i fear i am running out of time. A couple more years and i will soon be exceeding the age criteria. Haha. Well, i just hope that this time, my determination will not fade away as the year passes. I pray that this anger stays within me, pushing my limits as it murders my laziness. And i know that it is not only about losing those extra kilos but also equally about working on boosting up my confidence and knowledge level.  For 10 (or more) years down the line, i certainly would not want to depress over the fact that i did not work hard enough for what i wanted. 

Yes I Can ;)

I believe we all should dream. Dream in such a way that we strive towards making it a reality. But at the same time, assure ourselves that not every dream comes to life. And even if it does remain a dream forever, we should never regret it. Daring to dream is in itself an achievement and a dream come true ! 

Oh My God, okay, i am seriously freaking out now. I cannot believe i just wrote all that 'personal' feelings down and will be publishing it in a few minutes. Such uncontrollable emotions, Pretty ! I know for sure that i will be teased by a hell lot of you out there. And i bet some of you must also be laughing at me right now. But hey, maybe that criticism of yours just might motivate me even more. ;)

Till my next post, Eat-Pray-Love !
:D